After a few drinks, i came home and stuck on the radio and phoned them up and started on a rant about global warming, the wars and how come you don't play The Strokes. Anyway point being, i don't know. Was funny tho cause i kept going on and on and i could tell she wanted to hang up so that made me more boring and i just kept on going, eventually she said i'm hanging up now....i thought it was funny.
So, had a wee blow out last night, started off cool just sittin with my brother, the sound of silence was all that was heard for most of the night, which suited me but as the night went on we went to his neighbours house and there was maybe 6 or 7 there but the conversation was in full flow, everyone having a laugh and talking about interesting things like whats the best water on the market....anyway. Although i was content being there i looked around, and without being disrespectful or whatever, no one had a job, no one probably had 2 brain cells and i thought, why am i the one sitting quiet, no confidence, no enthusiasm to join in the banter? Still can't understand that feeling last night, as i've said before i prefer one on ones or my own company, i'm hoping that changes of course but i must admit i felt relieved when i got home, probably why i phoned ********* radio, i wanted to join in last night, i had things to say but couldn't drag myself out of my thought induced coma that had me sitting in a chair, almost in a daze.
I've honestly no time for people except the people i choose to talk to, dunno what that means, selfish? just like everyone else? shallow? dunno.
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